Almost a Year Now.

Last year, before the leaves disappeared,
you told me I was the only one for you.
Last year, before the snow started to fall,
you told me you would never leave.
Last year, when the air went cold,
you told me you loved me.
But the leaves are falling again and you have someone else.
That snow is now gone, just like you.
The air is just starting to cool down again,
and you love anyone but me.
And now the leaves are back,
but starting to fall again, and we're over.
And it all slipped away so slowly.
And I've learned that you don't know what you've got until it's gone.
People don't know how lucky they are if you're in their lives.
And I dispise people who take you for granted.
I've tried to say all the things I want to say,
but it never comes out right.
It always sounds like some corny love poem.
It's deeper than that, and you'll never understand.
and I'm still here, waiting, for you to listen to the real me.
This is me, the one who I wished you could know.
And all I ever do is wish that things were different.
The envy of her talking to you, laughing with you, touching you.
Oh the envy of her is killing me.
Almost a year now, and I wonder if you still care.
Almost a year now, and I wonder if I ever cross your mind.
Almost a year now, and I wonder if you ever remember my name.

Ask Her.

she's not like that now. she knows better.
she knows now that people life sometimes leave,
and promises can be broken as quick as they're made.
she undestands that she might never be loved,
and too quickly good things fly in front of your eyes
beore you can reach out and grab them.
she knows that you can't change or help time,
so every now and then it will just run out.
there isn't a place for everyone in the world,
so if you're standing alone for a while, that's why.
not everything in life comes easy,
but when you work the hardest, that's when it's the best.
you can't always expect people to care,
and even when your best friends stab you in the front,
don't think for one minute, that they didn't already aim for your back.
they missed for a reason.
she has found out too soon, that in the end, you're your own best friend.
everyone will be broken at some point in their life,
and more often than not it's going to hurt like hell, but you can't stop it.
you can't change your fate. some things are meant to be.
and all the pain you go through, will end up resulting in something huge.
you don't know what it is and when it happens,

it will hit you like a ton of bricks.
at some point, when you have experienced everything you can,
the words life and risk, won't mean anything to you anymore,
but don't try to change that. stuff like that is meant to happen.
over time, certain things no longer have an affect on you,
and that happens because, that's the way it's supposed to be.
but you'll learn later in life when little things,
like a sunrise or a spring rain start to matter, beware.
it might catch you off guard and happen sooner.
I mean, ask her... she knows.
-unknown.