Trying, hoping, and failing.

I'm trying to carve away the ice from around your heart.
I'm trying to turn the switch off in your brain,
so you can feel as vulnerable as I am right now.
I'm trying to prove to you that I could be worth it.
I want you to let go and let me in.
I'm trying to break down the walls
that you have built up over the years.
I hope that you find someone that makes
you feel like you can do anything when you're with them.
I hope that they make you feel infinite.
I hope that when you're together,
they always have one hand on you at all time,
as if to say "I am never ever leaving"
I hope they listen to every one of your stories,
and is always on your side.
I hope they let you listen to your favorite music
when you're in the car together,
even if it's different than their favorite music.
I hope that when you wake up,
they are the first person you want to text.
And when they go to sleep,
you're the last person that they think about.
I hope you find someone to break down the walls
that you have built up over the years.
I hope that you let go and let them in.
I hope you find someone who is worth it.
I hope that they leave you vulnerable,
and it scares you, but in a good way.
I hope that they carve the ice from around your heart.
I'm just sorry that person cannot be me.
-written by me